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  • Touch

    I am in counseling again (after some major life challenges forced me to readdress some issues), which has been very beneficial this go-around. I have a new therapist who is great and I feel that I can be honest in exploring how I feel. Lately I have the urge to SI, but I couldn’t really…

  • I feeling a lot more emotion these days and I don’t necessarily like it. It seemed like there was a patch were there was a lot of emotion pain but urges weren’t really on my radar– that was ok, I guess. I decided to write as I noticing judgement in myself over what the biggest…

  • I give up

    I have been trying so hard lately to see the good in life that the bad things in life are only temporary but I’m about to give up because no matter how hard I try its never good enough sometimes I think it would be a lot better if I just disappeared and went to…

  • Struggling to keep up the momentum…

    This is my first time returning to this site in years. I struggled with severe self injury 7 years ago, went through the S.A.F.E. Inpatient & Outpatient programs, and have done so well since then, only having a small relapse once/year  or so . However, I have had a setback lately… I wouldn’t say there…

  • Living in between

    So things have been really bad emotionally, yet somehow I haven’t self injured. Or taken up anything bad. And I feel like I somehow “should” because survivors of trauma and patients are “supposed” to do bad things to themselves. (There have definitely been times I wanted to self injure until I could not see straight.)…

  • struggling with urges

    I have not self harmed for 7 months now.  THis is the longest length of itme I have gone without harming.  I thought as time went on that it would get easier and easier.  However, I have found that to be false.  The longer it has been since I harmed, the harder it is to…

  • Struggling

    I wish this site were more active.  I really like knowing I can come to a trigger free place.  Sometimes I purposefully go to triggering places, I guess as a way of mentally self harming, but sometimes (like now) I know I HAVE to stay away from the triggers, or my thoughts might turn into…

  • Motivation

    I just watched a very triggering episode of Grey’s Anatomy.  I have been doing lots of things to trigger myself lately.  It doesn’t help that it is my bad time of year.  It’s exactly 20 years since the really bad stuff happened, so it’s not as bad as it used to be.  Time and therapy…

  • Adventures in safety….

    I posted last week when I hadn’t posted in maybe a year. I still haven’t had a relapse in action and the relapse of repetitive thoughts/urges is less of a problem then it was last week. But last week I was attributing an uptick in urges to going off meds. I also said that my…

  • It’s been quite some time since I’ve written on this blog. I think of it often and how it got me through so many rough times and so many sleepless nights. I feel full of thoughts tonight and like I need to let it go somewhere. I’m not as used to being as vulnerable as…