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  • relapsed after almost 2 weeks of not SIing. dissapointed. didn’t tell anyone yet. don’t plan on it either. i feel like i’m going back to rock bottom, back to square 1. i don’t know what to do. i was so strong, and now i’m giving up again. i hate myself for this.

  • cuss word

    i don’t know what’s up with me these past few weeks. i had gone 2 monthswithout SI. 2 months. and then i slipped up… then again a few days later… than again after that. i was doing so well, and then that one little mistake ruined it. i haven’t in a few days, but the…

  • ER

    so. last night. was a nightmare. i’ve been having continuing thought of ending it lately, and long story short, one of my friends found out and told my sister, who forced me to tell my mum. which sucked. i felt so bad. so today, she didnt let me go to school, she wanted me to stay…

  • not helping

    so my friend, my wonderful nest friend who i love to death, who also struggles with SI, is acting very… fake about it lately. like she told me she was cleaning her room and she found something she used to use to SI, so she tried it to compare.  so obviously i was worrying about her…

  • can’t

    i can’t do this anymore. i can’t can’t can’t. im so alont right now. my best friend who is the only one that can help me is grounded i havent talked to her in like 2 weeks, and im breaking down. im going crazy. i need to SI so bad right now. im bawling my…

  • time..

    so i’ve gone about a month + one week without SIing, and i’m proud of myself, i really am. but i already feel like i’ve been doing this forever, but at the same time, i feel so new to it all.  me and my boyfriend rescently broke up after just a mess of a realtionship,…

  • here we go…

    i haven’t SIed in almost 3 weeks, 3 weeks tomorrow actually. but today… uhgg. i’ll strat from the beginning. so last night i had a sleepover with my dance team, which i’ve ben a part of for years now, and i love them all so much, but i got zero sleep. so when i got…

  • two weeks!

    okay so today [or yesterday], december 23, marks that i haven’t SIed in two weeks!!!! i’m so proud, i don’t think i’ve gone this far in a really long time. everyone is so happy for me, including myself :] i’m really trying as hard as i can, and it’s definitely paying off! wow i’m just…

  • in school

    so in school today we had a presentation about Rachel’s Challenge, which is like a set of goals out together by a girl named Rachel who was the first victim of the Columbine massacre in 1999. and as i was listening to her story and her goals, it inspired me. i realized that i can…

  • just writing

    unlike many people on this site, i’ve never been the “ugly, fat girl that nobody likes” and it kind of makes me feel weird; i’m in a very good place in my life, but i just can’t stop SI. My very good friend who SI has many family roblems, but i don’t. i used to, but…