Posts by J

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  • i don’t know what to do anymore.

    hello everyone. i haven’t been on here  in years, and up until now, i was doing really well. a few days ago, however, my life was flipped upside down. so, last week, i finally told someone about my si. i haven’t told anyone ever (besides a priest), in the 4 1/2 years i’ve been struggling….

  • it’s been such a long time, and so much has changed…

    for anyone who needs hope, today marks one year since i have SIed. it is possible to stop. it is possible to change. don’t give up, people care about you and want to help! i’ll admit, i’ve slipped up quite a few times, but the way i look at SI has completely changed. i don’t…

  • these scars remind me that the past is real.

    right now, i honestly feel like i’m going to be sick. he has invaded my mind again. i haven’t thought about him this much since i last saw him almost 10 months ago. i want to talk to him one last time so badly. i need some closure if i’m ever going to let go. but…

  • the past should stay dead.

    i finally was happy. i really, truly was happy. but for some reason, the past has come back to haunt me. i still can’t let go of him. two nights in a row i’ve cried about him. i haven’t cried since december (that last time i SIed), and now i’m crying over someone who’s not…

  • i need your advice now.

    ugh. this week i have a doctor’s appt. and i really don’t want to go. it’s my yearly checkup and last time my doctor asked if i’ve ever had thoughts of SI or suicide. at the time, i had only been SIing for a month or two so i lied and said no without even…

  • God’s cake

    i know that some of you liked my previous post a lot so i would like to share another story with you all. it carries the same type of message of hope and i really hope it helps you in some way. “Sometimes we wonder, “What did I do to deserve this?” or “Why did…

  • when your hut is on fire…

    today i received an email that had a really great story in it. this story put a smile on my face and reminded me that there is always hope. i hope this story will brighten your day as much as it brightened mine. (this is a religious story, so it may have no effect on…

  • finally….

    today, i feel on top of the world! last night i graduated (from 8th grade, not that big of a deal) and i just feel so amazing! i am really sad that i won’t be able to see some of my old classmates that i have grown to love, but i am also happy that…

  • just an update.

    hello everyone. i haven’t posted anything in a very long time because i’ve been so busy with school and sports and getting ready for graduation on wednesday (i’m only graduating from 8th grade, but everyone’s making it a big deal). i’m proud to say, however, my streak is still going, which is really amazing because…

  • is it just me…

    or do people not realize how hurtful words can be? i feel like people want me to SI even though they have no idea that i actually have. classmates constantly accuse me of injuring and being “emo” and all this other stuff, but they don’t know a thing. everyone makes a joke about it and they…