Posts by SadieMae

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  • I cant believe im back here…..

    Soo much time has passed since I last even entertained the idea and yet I find myself here again.  Does it ever go away…. Two weeks ago I witnessed a friend of mine get jumped by three total strangers for absolutely no reason other than they said he bumped into them.  And out came all…

  • it had to happen . . .

    i couldnt stop it this time.  all the time and effort i put into it, wasted.  i hadn’t si’ed in nearly two years.  My boyfriend and i broke up and then got back together only for me to find out he had already slept with three other people and was dating someone in less than…

  • whatever

    I posted on here last month and no one responded . . . So I kinda feel like whats the point.  But i guess its just whatever.  I got out of the abusive relationship and now here I am, with three kids to take care of by myself and so many OBSTACLES.  Its been almost two…

  • abuse in all its subtleties

    Its been a long time since I have posted on here but thought I would come back and share a bit.  My name is Sadie and I am a SAFE Alumni from March of 2008.  While I didnt remain SI free after completion of the program I continued to use the tools the program had…

  • too close to the edge.

    It’s been 3 months since I went to the SAFE program and I have to say July is becoming the more difficult month than the first two.  My therapist just had a baby and we have had to stop therapy for 2 months.  I’m in the middle of preparing to move about an hour and…

  • It’s Good!

    I went through the S.A.F.E. program in March of 2008 and I’m just stopping by to see how people are.  It’s disturbing to hear some of the posts on here so I thought why not add a nice happy post. Since I left SAFE I have stayed SI Free and made progress in leaps and…

  • while spring cleaning . . .

    . . . . I came upon a knife that I had hidden a long time ago.  A knife that I have had for several years.  I completed the safe program around the end of March so it hasn’t even been two months.  However I didnt think that something like this would bother me because…

  • lonely hours of contemplation

    When I was at SAFE I can recall people telling me to be prepared for more intense urges and feeling worse after you left than when you came in because of everything you start to work on while your there.  And when I came back my therapist told me also to be prepared for things…

  • i just got back . .

    So i just got back from the SAFE program last night.  My apartment looks different to me.  My surroundings have changed yet stayed the same . . . is this normal?  I feel like the ceilings in here are higher . . . does that make sense?  No impulses yet but I have all my…

  • ummm

    this may sound strange, but can you wear short sleeves while at the program?  would it be considered triggering to openly wear short sleeves . . . i dont know maybe this is a stupid question.  but i was curious and since im going to the program in a few weeks im trying to decide…