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  • pain

    so i am very close right now to doing i don’t know what. i don’t know what to do, it just feels like pain is surging through me, i don’t know who to turn to because the one person i would normally try to contact is busy, and the other two are the cause of…

  • no hope

    one thing. thats all it to ok to set me off. and it was just a stupid comment too, that really shouldn’t have done anything to me, but made  me feel,  just so worthless and unloved that i had to. i just had to injure myself. and i had been going good too. i just really…

  • whatever

    today was just so stressful, like it just seemed like the whole world was weighing down on me and there was nothing i could do. i don’t know why. sometimes i sit in class and i just feel like hurting myself. and sometimes i just feel like ending myself. i don’t know what is going…

  • i’m not afraid

    so, i did it again. so much for trying to be good. and i’m trying to get in touch with my one friend who always just listens, he doesn’t try to give advice for what he doesn’t know, but he’s not answering but there’s so much i need to say. i think i wrote this…

  • helping or hurting?

    so i had a long conversation with my best friend about injuring myself. again she told me i have so much going for me and all that lovely crap. and she went on about how i will succeed in anything i try. and for somereason i just couldn’t bring myself to find truth in that….

  • stress

    so we got grades back in school, and i did bad in one of my classes. so for the rest of the class, i sat there fidgeting, because all iw anted to do was hurt myself. for a good forty minutes, until i could get to the bathroom to do it i was just sitting…

  • again.

    i hadn’t si’d in a few days, i was so proud of myself. and then today in school, it just sucked, it was just one of those if it can go wrong it will go wrong, and if anything can hurt you it will, and  all i could think was “i wanna get home so i…

  • float

    so maybe i didn’t have enough hope and now i’m writing just to keep myself busy so i don’t si. because you know i can’t do anything right, i’m just a failure at life, that’s basically what they’re telling me. and the music helps, but its too late and i can’t belt. so now i’m…

  • hope

    i’ve been alot happier the past few days, and i like the feeling. i still feel alone in crowds and when i go out, but i haven’t fully fledged si’d in like two days. only small si. i’m hoping i can keep it that way. and with going back to school tomorrow, i’m hoping i can…

  • words.

    i did it again last night. but this time my friend (one who knew) caught me. i was just so upset about something, i couldn’t help it. but i did something i haven’t done in a while. i only ever do that when its really really bad. and i’m not proud of myself for getting…