Posts by Kestogrrrl

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  • 10 Months SI Free!

    It is possible to reach a place in life where SI does not consume your every waking thought and where impulses to injure do not rule your actions of each day. I am a SAFE Intensive Alum having graduated back in Sept. ’08. I did have a relapse several months after the program and then…

  • Fresh Hurt

    After a year with no injuring, I started up again. I’m really not sure why I started but I did. Well if I think about it I am under a lot of STRESS and just feel this strong need for release. Sure there are other safer ways to release stress but there is something compelling…

  • Five Months SI Free

    Sure I can celebrate that I’ve been SI free for five months but know that it hasn’t been without a struggle.  I have made a conscious effort to choose not to self-injure. Today I had a “crappy good” session with my therapist.  That term comes from when I attended SAFE last Aug/Sept.  It’s crappy b/c…

  • Feeling Alone

    I’m feeling alone and isolated at the moment. I’m also having some impulses but luckily they are not strong. I really wish sometimes that this site had an online chat b/c I could really use someone to talk to about what I am feeling. I’d rather vent those feelings and thoughts than be stuck where…

  • Change

    I’ve been attending group for the past few weeks and this was one of the handouts we got.  It’s about change and I really like it so I thought I’d share it.  “Autobiography in Five Short Chapters”  Author Unknown I.  I walk down the street.  There is a deep hole in the sidewalk, I fal…

  • I Hit a Major Bump in My Road, and got back up!

    Hi, I’m Kelly and I graduated SAFE this past Sept.  I was doing really great when I first got home, you know, that high from having such a successful and intense time in program.  Well for some reason I just didn’t see myself as being on the road of recovery.  I think I was viewing…

  • Pressure Cooker

    I just want to cry right now but feel like I can’t so instead I feel myself getting numb b/c I’m not sure what I am feeling.  I guess I’m feeling frustrated, angry and betrayed and with the things happening recently it is getting overwhelming and I am afraid I am going to relapse. I…

  • I agree with the last post about coming home from the SAFE Intensive to an unstructured world. I graduated a couple of weeks ago and I too was rushed out b/c of insurance. I was supposed to have 4 more days but at 11:30 a.m. on a Friday I was told that was my last…

  • Hey everyone, I graduated yesterday!  I am so proud and happy that I made it through to the end of the program.  I’ll never forget what that day one was like and what that first week was like, believing I wouldn’t make it.  But I kept an open mind and followed the program with all…

  • I’m Attending S.A.F.E. Intensive Now

    Hi Everyone, I just wanted to make a post now that it has been 2 weeks since I started the S.A.F.E. Intensive program here in Denton, TX.  I’m now PHP and working hard on all of my assignements.  This really is the BEST decision I’ve ever made for myself.  Imagine, I will be S.I. free…