Posts by jamie

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  • So frustrated!!

    I’m so frustrated! I hadn’t SI’d in a almost a year and than I did it and now the urges are so strong all the time. I just don’t know how much longer I can fight this. I mean I know ways I’ve learned to cope with them but I”m so tired of fighting this…

  • Overwhelmed

    It has been forever since I have been on here. For a long time I was doing so well with SI and than I relapsed into my eating disorder big time. I am now in treatment for ED but with facing all of that, its so hard and the urges to SI are back full…

  • Really struggling

    I have not SI’d in three months and I was really pround but my anorexia has taken complete control. I normally only eat between 300-500 calories a day. I am in counseling and saw him yesterday. I tried very hard today and had over all 800 which was my goal but I am now compltelty…

  • freaked

    I am struggling so much with my eating disorder the last couple 4 months or so. I was doing okay for a while and than I relapsed completely and now its bad. But see my counselor wants me to go into treatment but I am so not ready for that at all! I mean everyone…

  • letting go

    I can not stop thinking about it. I’m really just wanting to do it just to get past it in my head. I don’t even know if that made sense but basically I am completely obsessed with it. I hate that I can’t let this go! My counseling is going so well but I’m just…

  • Who Cares!

    I am feeling so depressed lately. I was in a car accident and my one ‘get away’ (my car) is now gone.  I don’t have the money for another one and I hate it! Driving is a way to be alone and calm down. I hate that I don’t have it! I hate that I…

  • one more thing

    Okay I can’t talk to anyone about this so i need to write. on top of SI’ing I am now back into full fledged ED. I know i am out of control but I can’t tell anyone because I went into counseling because of my self injury. I had an eating disorder before but after…

  • Overwheling thoughts

    Nothing is going right. I was trying so hard to be happy today and all day I was depressed. I really don’t even know why. Than I was reminded of an added expense that I do not have money for. I am having a hard time with my finances now and this just added to…

  • Can’t stop

    I am so overwhelmed with some financial issues and right now its just affecting me more right now. I SI’d for the first time in 2 weeks last night and than did it today again. I really need to do it again. Its not good enough. I totally understand why money leads people to suicide….

  • All night

    okay i’ve been drawing all night to try and keep my hands busy but i keep thinking about it. its been almost two weeks and i just need to feel it. I can’t get it off my mind!