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  • Psychiatrist

    I saw the psychiatrist yesterday. She asked about an injury from a couple months ago- if it has healed and I said mostly and told her about the state of its healing. I was wanting soothing- hopefully in the form of it’s going to be ok or that’s not uncommon but even in the form…

  • Sad

    I went to the doctor yesterday for help managing something I did to myself.  I felt good about going- like I wasn’t twisting away from reality but facing it and it was a lot easier than just sitting around worrying.  In general I’ve been thinking about posting a positive message here.  Like, I had a…

  • What do you do about a time when you don’t want to stop. I went a long time and put in so much effort but I feel totally different now. I feel like I have some deep understanding that this is what is right and real and good.  I injured.  I talked to my t on…

  • How do you know if what you did really has to have medical care?  Is there a site or something that will let me know what the consequences of not treating are?  I’m very aware of the consequence of treatin/don’t see how I could live through it.  Is there a rule of thumb like as…

  • where I am

    I rely on the tools and I’ve been doing well. But I told my therapist something that it’s my first instinct to label as “bad.” A secret about the si and where I do it that I just relate to totally different than any other part. It was in conjunction with a session about shining light…

  • sabotaging my progress

    I keep asking myself where I am in all of this. I haven’t injured for over a month now. I don’t feel like I’m “in recovery.” That whole idea, “recovery” just doesn’t make some sort of basic sense to me. I’ve been longer stretches but this one feels like it may be permanent. I’m scared though….

  • slipping

    I feel panicked. I really want to make it through the night without hurting myself but the weight of it is on me like it’s making me have to do it. I don’t want to. I’m bringing myself back the present again and again but can only stay for a few seconds at a time….

  • A few things

    I’m feeling pretty mixed up. Strong waves of jumbled emotion that I can’t untangle and strong steady urges that I can’t fight (have to accept as urges without acting on them) or else I end up with a panic attack. In external ways I’m doing pretty well. Not exactly si free but over the last…

  • not working

    I’d been about a month without but just had to and tried a few days ago but it didn’t work. It hurt too much and it didn’t help me. It’s never been like that before. On one hand I’m sure this is a good sign. On the other I feel abandoned by my last resort–like something has…

  • I have a problem-solving thing to contend with and I wonder if any of you have experienced similar: I was trying to finish my degree and must be well into my senior year by now. I’m a good student and usually get A’s but I was in the middle of an independent study when I…