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  • I’m here because I have to be somewhere. I’m just not able to handle myself on my own. I’m disappointed to see that I earn myself back from one compulsion then fall into another. si is under control but substances are now a problem. I feel like I want to crawl under a rock a…

  • what it’s like now

    I’m here today because something very weird is happening. My personality has just sort of been shifting in a way where I’m more at ease in the world, in easier relationship with others to a degree that my work life has been drastically altered by being more functional. I think I didn’t know what happiness…

  • What’s going on with me right now is that my heart is beating so hard that it’s keeping me awake.  I try bringing my attention to my breath and some of the body tension dies down but the second I notice myself relaxing I freeze up again.  I’m facing a difficult court date in two…

  • violation

    I’m feeling like I’m covered and ants and I can’t them off or like I was an animal traveling with a pack of animals then I got circled by a wolf and I’m trapped, my connection to others has been severed. I found out that the husband I’m separated from paid someone to hack into my…

  • therapist away

    I am FREAKED OUT about my therapist being away. I have shame about the panic too but right now the primary panic is louder than the shame. I never like it when he goes away and I’ve been with him now for nearly two years but I’ve never experienced it quite like this before. My…

  • Getting a Teen into Therapy

    Hello, I normally turn to this site when I’m really struggling but I’m starting to get some real recovery under my belt. (I remember writing here a couple years ago that whole idea of recovery didn’t even make sense to me: I get it now.) My 12 year old is really struggling: falling grades, skipped…

  • Confused and in a Tight Spot

    I haven’t posted here yet this year. I haven’t needed too… or the triggering-ness of this forum was outweighing the benefit but now the benefit outweighs everything. I need a place to be heard and try and get my thoughts together. I’m not sure what’s going on with myself and I need to nail down…

  • Ok.  It’s been months for me and I’m not at my edge yet but there’s big a shift in my personality lately which I think means I’m getting better and it’s causing me to behave differently.  My husband feels he’s dying of my changes.  But I want to keep them.  But I’m not sure what…

  • I really wish I wasn’t here on this site right now- that I could just change already.  Be different.  It’s been months for me.  The urges were even mostly gone.  Now it’s the same old struggle and I’m just sick of it.  I got really dissociated in therapy at the beginning of the week.  I…

  • Thank you all so much for being there. I realize that by writing here I am really trying to communicate. That I need to communicate. There’s so much I need to communicate. Someone I didn’t know personally but was part of my community took her life on Christmas day. I found out on New Years…