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  • Inconsistency

    Earlier this week, even yesterday, I was on the top of the world. One of my web series was licensed to appear on cell phones, I saw Inception in IMAX and watched a roller derby with several friends I haven’t seen in forever, and things just generally felt perfect. And then all of a sudden,…

  • Self-injury and relationships

    I went to SAFE about two years ago, and one of the things we were taught there was that self-injury kills relationships, far more than it ever can to save them. Well, I’ve pretty much just proved that theory. As if it wasn’t proof enough to lose several of my closest friends over the years…

  • Coming back from a relapse

    I went to SAFE in the summer of 2008 and stayed self-injury free for ten months after. I injured myself once around the ten month mark, and then managed to stop again for a couple of months. But I started to have another emotional breakdown and had to go on medical leave towards the end…

  • Tai Chi?

    This question is for the alumni of adult intensive. I really enjoyed doing Tai Chi at SAFE for some reason, and have been wanting to start doing it again. Trouble is, I can’t remember any of the moves we were taught. Does anyone remember what they were/were called/looked like/etc?

  • Finally?

    So at SAFE, I did my first roleplay to my ex-best friend from high school, who basically dumped me at the end of senior year for being too crazy. They asked me what I would do if I never heard from him again, and I said I’d be ok. And I was. But I read…

  • Just wanting to celebrate.

    As of today, I have made it nine months without self-injuring.It’s been tough occasionally. There have been a lot of rough moments throughout the nine months.  But really? They were easier to deal with without self-injury than they would have been with it, at least in the long run. And the fact that I’ve made it…

  • Having trouble not falling through the cracks.

    I haven’t been to therapy in over a month. I was seeing someone at school, but she sucks at scheduling, so she kept failing to schedule me, even when I wanted to see her. I’m in the process of switching counselors, but even there, I haven’t heard back yet. It’s really frustrating, because I know…

  • Oh, those little victories…

    So, I was struggling with combination of self-injury and suicide thoughts a lot more recently. I had a long conversation with one of my best friends about it the other night, and it helped a lot, in the sense that it reminded me that people do care and want me to get better, and that…

  • And now the honeymoon is over…

    I graduated from SAFE in early June, and for the first couple of months afterwards, it was great. I knew I could handle anything, and it was so easy to keep myself in control and not even want to give into my impulses. Now, all of a sudden, it isn’t so easy anymore. I know…

  • Self-destruction nightmares

    So, I graduated from SAFE in early June (adult intensive, Denton). And I’ve stayed self-injury free since then, without any major issues. But for some reason lately, I keep having nightmares that I give in to my impulses, both with self-injury in the traditional sense and with self-destructive behavior (binge eating, sexual promiscuity, etc). I…