Posts by Denise

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  • Still Around!

    My name is Denise it’s been a really long time since I’ve written anything, but today I found myself wanting to give it all up.  My road to becoming was paved with the thorns without the roses, the downs without any ups and being stuck and deciding 100% of the time not wanting anymore because…

  • It’s been a while!

    Don’t exactly know where to begin tonight because it’s been a long time since I wrote on this and I’m not even sure if anyone from S.A.F.E would remember. Yesterday marked 2 months that’s I haven’t injured myself since graduating back about 5 years this coming July-August. I still blame myself for all the abuse…

  • ABANDONED!

    It’s that time again. That time when I’m being left in my crisis while people take their vacations. I’m not saying they don’t deserve it (my Therapist/Psychiatrist), but right now my life is and endless thought of when is the other shoe going to fall. Will they or won’t they come back to treat a…

  • Alone!

    I know it’s been a while since I’ve done this, but I have really spiral out and can’t slow down the fall. People tell me I’m not alone, but who is really here today with me no one. I don’t have any of the social connections or economic statuses of everyone I know. I haven’t…

  • In Short!

    It’s really been a while since I’ve blogged and I guess that’s in part because I’ve really haven’t had anything to say. I’ve been feeling like no one listens to anything I have to say and always has their own thoughts about how I should be feeling. My thoughts here of lately is that everything…

  • Hey!

    I really don’t know why I’m on here right now. All I know is that I could hear myself screaming so loud inside my head and asking the one question that always haunts me. When? When will I ever stop. I don’t feel safe anymore saying or writing what’s on my mind. I’ve stopped writing…

  • FAILURE!

    I’m sitting her thinking of what I have to do this week and feeling numb. I started college (well if you call a week going) this month. Things came up and the SI got even more intense than ever before that I have to DROP-OUT & go back at a different time. I told my…

  • Over it!

    don’t know if what I’m about to write is considered burn out, but and that’s a big one. I really haven’t stopped the SI because it’s such a normal way for me to deal with things and no one quite gets it. I’m blinded by the fact that whatever was done and by whom when…

  • Not Alone (What a JOKE?)

    Yesterday i was getting toward the end of my session with my psychiatrist when she “If I wouldn’t if she let her next patient in.” What in the world was I going to do say “NO” GOD forbid, I would have to bite my tongue before doing that. She had him come in to prove…

  • Numb

    I’m here right now feeling like I’m the only person who exist in my world. I feel as if everything is upside down inside out and nothing make sense anymore. Is this feeling I have my own making and is it a punishment because I deserve it. Nights are too long and well the days…