Posts by -daelyn-

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  • Going back …

    This all seems so impossible. I find it hard to comprehend that after nearly four years of struggling to break free of SI that I’m embracing it and sprinting backwards now. If you would have asked me if I planned on stopping SI last year or the year before I could have told you yes…

  • slipping over the edge

    I don’t understand how I managed to slip into such a depressed mood in just a few hours. I literally have no idea why I’m feeling so hopeless right now. I feel so incredibly lonely right now in my struggle. The urge to take a permanent out is so strong right now. I haven’t felt…

  • Spiraling out of control

    I’ve been battling with Si for more than three years now. There’s been moments where I wanted nothing more than to be “over it” to be free of the cycle. There’s also been moments where I couldn’t even fathom where I would be without Si, where I couldn’t even try to picture myself without it….

  • replay

    Here I go again, it’s like someone hit the replay button and I’m back to square 1, right back at the beginning. I’m really feeling down right now. I don’t understand how I’ve once again managed to flip from just fine to mega-depressed. I don’t understand why it happens like this; being fine then being so…

  • Sledding

    Today is one of those days where everything just stinks. I’ve only been up for a few minutes and I’m already miserable. I can feel myself sliding down into the hazy blue that so often surrounds me. Today’s my junior prom at school … I kind of wish I was going. I wanted to go…

  • Roller coaster

    I’m all over the place, up and down, side to side. My emotions always get the best of me and today is one of those days where they’re completely out of control, all over the charts. Today started out lousy because I was arguing with someone. Then when I got to school everything seemed “fine”…

  • feeling so great …

    I realapsed last night and it didn’t even help. With my grades slipping I feel so much pressure right now. I feel like the one thing I used to think I could do I now fail in. I used to be a straight A student and now I’m barely passing some of my classes. I…

  • Hurt

    I haven’t been on here in a long time. I finally decided to get on because it seems like everyone that I was relying on and using for support isn’t very supportive anymore. I feel more like I’m on my own than ever before. People keep saying that they’re here for me whenever I need…

  • Trapped

  • Abysmal

    I just got back from visiting family that I usually get to see only once a year and so now I’m back at home and it stinks. I get so attached to everybody in the week of spending time together so when I get home I’m completely miserable. While I was staying with my family,…