Posts by -daelyn-

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  • Major mood swings :/

    Why am I struggling with these thoughts again? I’ve been feeling a little bit down the past few days, but not absolutely horrible. I even had the fleeting thought that I was actually getting a little bit better but I quickly gave up on that idea. My day in reality wasn’t that terrible, I had…

  • Flustered

    Wow. This afternoon definitely hasn’t been turning out how I thought that it would. I was quietly doing my studies when two guys came up and started talking to me. It wasn’t a pleasant conversation, not one where both parties were mutually engaged in the conversation. I felt like I was getting harassed because they…

  • About to Collapse

    It seems like every time that I think I’ve hit my ultimate low, a new wave comes around and brings me even further down. I don’t even know how to describe how I feel at this point. My depression is consuming me. It’s managed to get to the point where I think about it almost…

  • No one to turn to

    I don’t know what to do right now. I don’t have any friends that I can talk to about anything that I’m experiencing right now and I can’t go to my family either. I used an online counselor chat thing yesterday and it wasn’t really helpful, the counselor tried to help but still wasn’t really…

  • Almost 37 days free

    Today will be 37 days free of self-injury if I don’t allow myself to relapse tonight. The past three or four nights this week have been really hard for me as far as avoiding relapse goes. I haven’t had anything especially traumatic happen so I know that there isn’t anything really obvious causing me to…

  • Sick

    I feel absolutely sick to the point that I’m nauseous.  I was putting something away in my little sister’s room and I noticed a pile of notecards on her desk. They were written on with crayons just on one side … like people do when they post youtube videos about themselves where you just read…

  • There’s so much that I feel like I want to say … not just want, but need. I need to talk about things, they’re getting so bottled up inside. I don’t know if I can stand the building pressure much longer. I feel as if everything has been twisted and wrenched into impossible positions and…

  • I can’t help myself

    I’m sorry that I’m giving into the urge so easily. I didn’t put up the fight that I should have. I’m just so tired and worn, please understand that my emotions haven’t been stretched so much in such a seemingly small span of time before now. I held together without giving in all day ……

  • A note to my family … if only I could give it to them

    I was trying … I was honestly trying not to use SI as a crutch. I know that you don’t notice whether or not I SI but if you did take notice to that kind of thing, surely you would have noticed how long I’ve managed without it. I haven’t exactly been doing well but…

  • Don’t know why I’m still here

    I’ve been getting on the blog a lot lately, I don’t necessarily post a lot but I do read through the blogs frequently. In a way I guess I’ve been using the blog to try to calm myself and assure myself that I’m fine, that there’s other people out there going through the same things…