Posts by -daelyn-

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  • Lost

    I haven’t been on this blog in probably over a year. I’m starting to really struggle again because I’m having a hard time working through what’s happened to me. I’m such a passive person that I have a really hard time standing up for myself. That’s why I can’t ever say no. No matter how…

  • I could use a miracle right now

    I wish that somehow I could just completely change myself. I hate that I always take things so personally, I hate being the person that takes every little comment to heart. I feel so vulnerable all the time because I react so emotionally to everything. I try to let things go and to not get…

  • The past few weeks have been really hard for me. I’ve been feeling extremely low and battling with suicidal thoughts almost daily. My eating has gotten out of control again and now I feel like I’m so huge and worthless. I feel like everything is spiraling out of control and I can’t seem to find…

  • Worthless

    I feel so stupid and worthless writing about this. I know I’ve written about similar things before, but it really just does make me feel that much more worthless. I don’t have any friends. Correction, I have one online friend but no friends in person. I know people like to just say that you need…

  • Wishing for Escape

    I just wish that I could disappear some days. I feel like I’m never making any progress and it frustrates me feeling so stuck. I just want everything to magically resolve so that way I don’t have to feel this way anymore. I just want to be “normal” for once. I’m so tired of bouncing back and…

  • It’s so weird trying to wrap my mind around how disordered eating can be a form of self harm. I had been going for a long time thinking that I was a certain length of time free of self harm, but that was only free of my former method of self harm. I hadn’t considered…

  • Today my therapist was talking to me and mentioned something about how I  struggle with feeling like I’m invisible. At the time I agreed with him, but now my perspective has totally turned around. The problem isn’t that I feel like I’m invisible, the problem is that I’m trying to be invisible. I just want…

  • I’m not really sure about anything right now. The person that I’ve grown used to having as a support isn’t really very talkative lately. I still have so much to say, but it appears that my support doesn’t want to respond to me anymore. I feel like I’m falling apart like old glue on a…

  • Insecure

    I feel guilty about being so insecure all the time. Over the past few years I’ve stayed in contact with an individual who has been a really good support for me. I don’t know how many times I’ve let my insecurities almost destroy our friendship over the years, but it’s definitely more than I would like to admit….

  • Struggling with the Past

    I feel as if I’m trying so hard to make my life have a turn around and it’s all just slipping away into wasted effort. I’m trying therapy and medicine but I can’t seem to get past my own head. I’m trapped in all of the same self defeating thoughts, I can’t escape my own…