Posts by crazystar

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  • It never ends

    so basically i have been injuring for over 2 years.  that is 2 years too long.  i just want it all to stop and to finally get better. i have been trying. i have been trying so hard.  it is so difficult though getting over an addiction.  and its killing me inside.  i cry and cry and…

  • UGHHH!

    This is getting so tiring.  I have been injuring for 2 years now.  ive been seeing a phsyciatrist for almost 2 years and ive been taking anti depressants for a year.  WHEN IS THIS GONNA STOP???  i hate the way my life has turned out. i never suspected my life to be this way.  filled…

  • I havent been on here for a long time

    so yes i have been improving drastically. i havent been on this site in ages. i havent injured since i think september but in september i didnt even really do it like fully. i think the last time i FULLY injured myself was in May.  i have been going to therapy for a year and a half…

  • wow..so much has happened

    i havent written here since like march..but i still have injured.  life has been so crazy. i kissed a guy for the first time, and that is supposed to be special but it was with some guy i just met and it was just a one time hookup..it was hard getting over it and dealing…

  • Just one second away

    I was literally just one second away from ending it.  I had already started SIing.  but i just got so scared. i had butterflies and i was trembling.  im crying and scared. this is the closest ive ever gotten to that.  it is so scary. i really want to SI. i need to SI. but i cant. if i do, i may…

  • I HATE MY LIFE

    I hate life.   Today i think ive cried the most i have in so long. it is horrible.  I SIed yesterday and cried myself to sleep.  Today at school i didnt participate and talk to people.  I went to my phsyciatrist and only answered her questions with yes, no, or i dont know.  the anti depressants…

  • The mascara is running down my face.

    I just feel like letting everything out.. It started at my old school.  I had lots of friends, school was easy, and nothing was wrong.  6th grade, i had a boyfriend and i was happy.  then i graduate that school and start over at a whole new school. at that school i dont know anyone…

  • once again

    Once again i injured.  I have been dealing with the issue of injuring for almost a year.  I had finally begun to be better.  I have been take anti depressants and i have felt soo much better.  but then i got my period and i became a wreck.  I get so emotional and i started to…

  • I havent SI since august. which really isnt that long ago, but i finally started feeling better. i was on a better track feeling better. then on friday night i s.i. i wasnt in a bad mood or sad i just wanted need to.  then saturday i hung out with my 2 best friends and…

  • Me

    i cant ever do anything right. i screw up all the time and then i feel horibble. last year was the worst year of my life.  i kept on getting into fights with my friends over every little thing. my best friend decided randomly that she hated me and that we werent friends anymore. that…