Posts by chickvicious

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  • yeahhhh

    I have not SIed for over two months now, and I would like to keep that up. I just went through a nearly impossible break up with this guy, and all I want to do is take that pain out on myself, so Im going to write on here instead. We were together for ayear,…

  • feedback anyone? please.

    I watch my face gaze back at me, rippling and distorted; the colors slightly skewed. My skin is strikingly pale in the murky teal sea and the salty tears from my eyes blend with the salt water of the ocean. Watching my features waver with the tide, I realize maybe this is the way we…

  • .

    i am not a canvas for my own self destruction. i try to tell myself that over and over again, attempt to allow that to be the only thought infiltrating my traitorous mind. its the worst late at night, alone in the dark of my room, knowing all my weapons are within easy reach. i…

  • yeah.

    lately i havent been allowed to stay home alone. i hate myself for the stress this puts on everyone. i wish my mom didnt have to worry so much, and i wish i didnt scare my friends. im afraid that at some point everyone will just get fed up with me and bail. i cant really…

  • .

    self inflicted isolation so alone so my fault that girl in the mirror cannot be me her face is too pale her eyes are too scared whats that on her arms ………….injuries whats that in her hand? fingers clench over the tool whats that in her eyes? those watery spheres of hazel so alone so…

  • new years…

    last night was new years eve. I SIed for the first time in 20 days. great way to start off the new year right? i hate myself. alot. i cannot believe i gave in. wow. id been doing so good! and i cant tell anyone, because i told my mom i didnt do it, and…

  • blah.

    so ive been doing pretty good. its been 15 days since i last SIed, although it got bad last time and I did it a few days in a row. however, today i got triggered and cannot stop thinking about it. idk what to do. im not seeing my therapist til next week, i dont want…

  • hi.

    im a recovering injurer. well im not sure if im recovering, but im getting help for it. i started injuring two years ago, but stopped for the first time on my own. now im trapped in its vicious spell again. ive wanted desperately to talk to someone who gets it so my therapist told me about…