Posts by cchapman

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  • Scared

    The man who never loved me as a child is the man that needs me by his side now. What am I supposed to do with the anger when he is so frail? Do I go do I wait? What happens when he dies

  • Alone

    Just feeling really alone this evening. I miss my family. I miss having a partner and all I want to do is injure. I really need insurance so I can see a therapist but I guess that will have to wait. All I do is sit and cry. I have been crying over stupid football…

  • Sad

    Sad and alone. Afraid of myself. Injuring seems to be my only friend I want to be comforted by something other than my tools. What a lonely world I live in. My ex drives me crazy. But I miss having someone close. I know not a good reason to continue a bad relationship. Just want…

  • how do I get here

    i will be so glad when i get insurance and can see a therapist on a regular basis. i just don’t know how I can go from okay to horrible in point zero seconds. more than anything in the world i want to be okay, but today i know i am not. just thinking about…

  • life is crazy

    was judged tonight, by who???? my very best friend…….. or so i thought.  me being a lesbian is just to much for her godly, judgemental ways…..did i SI, yes I did.  Held off as long as i could but she broke my heart.

  • so sad

    i just want to scream from the rooftops someone hold me but……no one hears, no one responds, life is crazy. SIing is the only thing i find comfort in. i have to find some help somewhere soon.

  • does it get better

    lonely sad crying does it get better than this???? I have been self injuring again I graduated the program in August 2004 and thought i had it taken care of but this truly is a battle. no insurance to see a therapist and don’t see the doc again until Feb. i am just so lonely…

  • why do i do the things i do

    just out of a relationship and think I am in “love”….with a married woman…this is so crazy when i am away from her i feel so lonely, but could it be that i just want someone close i have been so lonely now for quite some time and I had such a good platonic time…

  • back again

    Hello everyone, it has been a long time since I have posted and my life is a wreck. I have recently moved to St. Louis for a new job and left my world behind in Southeast Missouri. I ended a reltationship, got a new job, moved, and left therapy all in one month. Am I…

  • finding hope

    It sounds like most folks are having a pretty rough time.  I can relate to that as I injured this week myself, however, I saw my therapist today and yesterday and she reminded me of who I was when I was happy and not injuring.  I found a ray of hope and remembered that there was a…