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  • When will it get better!?*

    Everytime I try and stop the SI…I can go for a few days and something sets me off and I am right back where I started and worse!! It never gets better so y do I think it will? I feel like I am fooling myself and it doesn’t feel good!!! I have been struggling…

  • Finding a New Me!!!!

    Hey…I haven’t posted for a while on this blog. I recently relapsed after having 12 days of being SI free. It is too much for me now…I cannot afford to go back to SI anymore or I believe I will die!! It never gets better when I do it it always gets worse!! It is…

  • One Day at a Time….

    Today is one of the first days that I have not injured myself in a long time. I’ve thought about it but realized tonight that I never acted on it today!! Wow!! This is huge for me. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring but I know for today…I am clean,sober and injury-free. I guess God…

  • Can’t do this anymore….

    I feel like I am giving up on myself and feel like no one even cares!! I certainly don’t so why should anyone else. I hate the place I am in but can’t seem to get out!! SI is always there for me and helps me thru the rough times. I think about it all the…

  • I don’t know what to do…HELP!!

    I am really messed up right now!!! I just had a great two hour session with my therapist and told her that I have added a second form of self-injury to the picture!!! Am I ever going to get better??? I feel like crawling into a hole, not talking to anyone and turning my phone…

  • Tired, Angry, and Frusterated….

    I have been all over the map lately with my emotions!! It really sucks!!! Sometimes I wish I could stay in bed all day long so that I don’t have to think about anything…including self-injury!!! It feels like I am on a gigantic rollercoaster and I can never get off!!! Lately…there has been rarely a…

  • All Alone….

    Hello everyone!! Right now I feel so many emotions all at once and they are so overwhelming that all I want to do is SI!!! I have been extremely angry these past few days and my therapist says that it probably has to do with Mothers day as I don’t talk to my mom and…

  • Confused and white knuckling it!!!

    I haven’t SI’d for 8 days now and that is a record for me for a while. Every day \i struggle with the thoughts of wanting to SI to make the pain go away. I sometimes forget the pain that SI causes cause it is what I know and what I am comfortable with. I…

  • Scared and Alone!!

    I am not doing so well these past few days!! I think that it has a lot to do with the holidays coming around the corner, but not really sure!! I feel sad, alone, angry and scared as last night I gave in to self-injury. I have been sooooo overwhelmed lately and that feeling of…

  • Every day is a new day!!!!!

    I have been really struggling lately with the desire to stay SAFE!! It sucks as it has been on my mind a lot these past few days. I came really close to hurting myself yesterday and had the instrument in my hand. It was very very scary for me…and then  I decided that I did…