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  • I feel like a failure. I can’t seem to find a job. I feel worthless and unwanted. My education feels like a waste of time and money. I am getting desperate. The more desperate I become the worse the downward spiral gets. I think because of how I a have been feeling, I have started…

  • Lost

    I feel like I’m at the very edge of what I can emotionally tolerate right now. I am scared of what I can’t control and sometimes even more scared of what I can control but don’t know/don’t want to go about doing what I need to. I’m trying not to engage in SI. Ultimately I…

  • Today

    I apologize if this is not the place to talk about this, or if it offends anyone…but the outcome of this election has left me feeling so negative. While I can talk about it with others, my desire to SI and why it has come about,I can’t talk about with anyone. But I need get…

  • Touch

    I am in counseling again (after some major life challenges forced me to readdress some issues), which has been very beneficial this go-around. I have a new therapist who is great and I feel that I can be honest in exploring how I feel. Lately I have the urge to SI, but I couldn’t really…

  • feelings of guilt

    Among all the difficult emotions I have been having lately, guilt seems to be creeping in very fast. And this guilt is becoming almost obsessive and I can’t turn it off. I just think about all these past things that I did wrong. For instance, several years ago I told on someone (they were doing…

  • the grass is greener…over there

    I continue to struggle…I am still trying to find a suitable job and it is taking a toll on me. The part-time job I do have takes time, and the time I do have I struggle between taking time for myself vs. this desperate need to do job searching activities. There hasn’t been much interest…

  • I am trying to identify a feeling right now..a feeling that just seems so overwhelming if I don’t do something about it in a constructive way it will end up being destructive. The only way I can label it is severe irritation, anger and worry. Maybe it’s due to the lack of sleep, maybe I…

  • self-worth(lessness)

    My self worth is tied to getting a job and I don’t know how to change this. I am struggling to hang on, be patient and not get discouraged everyday. It is tough and I am getting depressed more every day that goes by and I get another rejection or nothing at all. I am…

  • job searching

    I am feeling rejected, dejected and without purpose. Job searching is taking its toll and it is hard for me, who did not have much self confidence or self esteem before, to maintain some level of self-compassion. I just got rejected once again..and for something I really wanted. I feel hurt and discouraged more and…

  • Thoughts and Feelings

    I am struggling with how I am “supposed” to feel or how I “should” feel. I am still in this period of transition in life and I am feeling very lost. There was an opportunity I interviewed for. I haven’t heard anything so I am assuming and preparing for the rejection once again. Rejection for…