Posts by jeanie boo

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  • Pretending to be happy

    Originally posted 8/05/08: It’s like all day I’ve been trying to put up a front and act like what I’m going through isn’t even going on anymore.Man I fealt like I was like cheating myself out.Then plus I injured myself again today so here we go again.I don’t know how I’m going to tell my aunt…

  • Confused and Lost

    I haven’t posted on here in a while because I think I’m losing it. I have a mentor and everything, but what everyone fails to realize is that you can’t just drop the tools.You can’t just be like this is bad and I understand that so now I’m not gonna do it anymore.I know because I’ve…

  • just moved and well yeah………

    well i just moved and along with no longer having no one to talk to my dad is a preacher.So i’ll come up with the idea and then chicken out.I thought that by moving in with him all my problems would stop but I was wrong.They have this thing about them.They’re kinda like your period.You…

  • My Life Poem

    He tries to tell me he loves me too bad I know better than that now.i feel as if he doesn’t want me doesn’t care and she only wants to bring me down.another injury.the perfection and release.but then it’s not enough so I need to do it all over again.when people spot more arm the…

  •   Why is it that “S.I.“ have to be stereotyped? They stereotype us a being psycho, insane, crazy, just in need of attention, and even not normal.I hate the one that says we’re just in need of attention because I’m like if I wanted attention there’s a whole lot of other things I could have did besides S.I.. And…

  • 2 Weeks,1 Day

    Why does it matter anymore. So who gives a f**k what the hell I do now.I mean that a huge accomplishment and all of you know that.But I can’t take this sh*t anymore.Last night I had a suicide attempt but I just couldn’t follow through with it.I couldn’t imagine if like mah sister were to…

  • Tears been falling all day

    OMG.Today has been like the worst day ever.First I just moved like a month and a half ago and my mom is trying to get me to move in like July.Talk about not knowing what to do man.I called my dad and I was teling him how I’m still trying to adjust to where I…

  • Untitled

    Tomorrow will make 1 week.It’s like everytime I actually make it far with my goals I mess up again.If I wouldn’t have injured myself last Tuesday then it would have made 3 weeks.And now sitting here I’m like beating myself up about it and only making myself worse and having me feel worse and worse. Then it’s like…

  • I feel so bad

    Well I promised someone that I wouldn’t injure myself anymore.I broke that promise to that person once already and I did it again yesterday.I feel so bad cause I know how it feels when someone breaks a promise and you feel so betrayed and like you can never trust that person again. Plus the promise that I…

  • Another Outlet

    These last past two weeks have been thw worst of my life man.I promised my aunt I wouldn’t injure myself anymore and I”ve been deperately trying to keep that promise.It’s like everything that can go wrong has ent wrong.Yesterday I had to force myself to go to sleep because I was past the point of wanting…