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  • Scared…

    I’m am a mother of a 13yr old transgender child Aj (FtM) that has also been Si for almost 2 years and a slight eating disorder another year before that. I lost sole custody when they were 6 yrs old and their father got full custody and I have what’s considered secondary. I have been…

  • Feeling Pathetic and Missing a Lost Friend

    Yesterday I found out that one of my friends who started using again successfully killed himself after years of trying and failing. Considering that I’ve tried to end my life, I really should feel worse about him dying, but I don’t, and I almost hate myself for it. I wish that I felt bad for…

  • I feeling a lot more emotion these days and I don’t necessarily like it. It seemed like there was a patch were there was a lot of emotion pain but urges weren’t really on my radar– that was ok, I guess. I decided to write as I noticing judgement in myself over what the biggest…

  • I give up

    I have been trying so hard lately to see the good in life that the bad things in life are only temporary but I’m about to give up because no matter how hard I try its never good enough sometimes I think it would be a lot better if I just disappeared and went to…

  • Struggling with urges

    this is my first time on this website, and i’m not sure what to do…i’m struggling so bad with urges and i feel as though i have no one to talk to and that i’m alone. I’ve made it about 8-10 weeks without self harm but i don’t know if i can make it any…

  • Struggling to keep up the momentum…

    This is my first time returning to this site in years. I struggled with severe self injury 7 years ago, went through the S.A.F.E. Inpatient & Outpatient programs, and have done so well since then, only having a small relapse once/year  or so . However, I have had a setback lately… I wouldn’t say there…

  • Living in between

    So things have been really bad emotionally, yet somehow I haven’t self injured. Or taken up anything bad. And I feel like I somehow “should” because survivors of trauma and patients are “supposed” to do bad things to themselves. (There have definitely been times I wanted to self injure until I could not see straight.)…

  • struggling with urges

    I have not self harmed for 7 months now.  THis is the longest length of itme I have gone without harming.  I thought as time went on that it would get easier and easier.  However, I have found that to be false.  The longer it has been since I harmed, the harder it is to…

  • Anxiety or Depression?

    Just recently I have self harmed, for the first time ever. I had attempted before but was always too scared to do it, which made me feel like a failure. When it finally happened I felt accomplished & almost happy. Idk if it made my depression better or not. I’ve also just recently started struggling…

  • Is this normal?

    not to long ago i had one of my worst injuring spares ever and now I’m covered in healing injuries, this is the worst time ever. but every time i look at them, instead of disgust or anger or even feeling triggered, i feel this warm feeling in my chest i cant seem to place….