I’m tirelessly waiting to start college in the fall, even though I’m terrified about what might happen when I go. I’m already mentally preparing for the stress of classes and being away from home for so long, but there’s a no weapon policy for the campus.
How will I survive for a whole semester without my tool?
I’ve been reliant on my self harm for most of my life- since I was 8 or 9 years old. I’ve been on-again off-again relapsing since the end of elementary school. How can I start college without my tool being there when I need it? How can I handle daily panic attacks and crippling depressing that I’ll have to force myself to get through without my tool being there when I need to relapse?
I don’t know how I’ll be able to do it. I’ve thought about how to sneak a tool onto campus, although I know I shouldn’t.
What should I do?
Hi. It is definitely a stressful time with a lot of transitions. The fact the you are asking for suggestions on what to do shows that you really want to try something else. You have said that you have been doing it on and off again since elementary school. Have you gone through periods where you wanted to but were able to resist. what has helped you do that? For me, when the urge was strong and I didn’t know what else to do, I started running as a way to release the pent up emotions. Different things can work a different times too depending on how intense your emotions are. Congratulations on starting college soon, it can be stressful, but it also can be lots of fun and exciting learning new things. What are some healthy alternatives to outlet your feelings that you think might work for you?