Well this is my first time on this site and honestly I don’t know what I’m doing here all I know is I feel so alone and I don’t know what to do any more I used to self harm a lot when I was younger mainly because it felt like my life was spinning out of control and there was nothing I could do to stop it no one would listen to me not my family or my friends so I did the one thing that I knew I could control and that was to self harm but I was clean for almost 3 years until tonight… Tonight I broke down and did it again I have been under so much stress with my family and school and relationships I feel like I’m drowning and again no one is there for me the past 3 years have been so hard I lost people who I need in my life I feel so alone I’m trying to be a good person but nothing i do is ever good enough at least that’s the way it seems right now self harm seems to be the only thing keeping me from going completely crazy I have no where else to turn I just don’t know what to do anymore