My best friend was recently in a spot that I was at when I was a freshman in high school. She was talking to her father, who is an alcoholic, and he physically pushed her back into her chair after she told him that she was leaving the conversation.
Similarly, when I was a freshman my mother backed me against the exercise machine we had in our family room at the time, I had my arm up to block her from me, because, at the time, she was bigger than me and stronger drunk that sober (she was drunk then like her father was) and I had to push her away. She fell because her balance was off cause of how drunk she was, and she was screaming at me the way my best friend’s father was when he was drunk and yelling at her.
I’ve been hearing her talk on the phone with her aunt for almost an hour about all of this, and I want to say something, but I don’t know how to, and I want to relapse, but I know that would only make things worse, which kind of sucks.