I found this site from a random blog. I hope it helps…

With all the family and stress of the holidays I feel the anxiety and SI urges coming back. It is overwhelming, I have been SI free for a few months. I have talked to my partner about it, but I don’t want to worry her or my family.

I have tried drawing, knitting, read and playing games. I just don’t know what to tell people and I am not good at resisting urges when they come. I don’t want to bring everyone down around the holidays…