I am extremely scared that one day I am going to relapse. It is my ultimate fear and also my ultimate desire. I know I shouldn’t want to self injure but it is like this craving that does not stop. I have been without self hard for almost five years, but I still find myself having to keep the demons at bay everyday. I guess I just feel a little lost and I would really appreciate some advice. I can not even tell people in my life that I am thinking about the possibility of relapse. How do you keep moving forward after a long day?I