I injured, again. I really hate myself for it and all I want to do is curl up into a ball and cry. I was a month clean and I screwed it all up. I have self image problems and have been diagnosed with depression. I’m anorexic and everyone says I’m skinny but I’m scared to gain weight. Just wanted to write that out I guess…
You didn’t start self-harming in one day, and there will be times when you do it again during your healing. Instead of viewing it as a screw up or going backwards, look at what triggered it and what warning signs you had that you were feeling unsafe. You’re working on your recovery, and that’s what matters. Hang in there!
Lizzie Lou. Don’t put yourself down sweet heart. Think of recovery like school. In school we have tests. We can’t always make 100%. Sometimes we get an 80%. Other times we fail. But that doesn’t mean WE are a failure. Without failure, one can not learn from their mistakes and become A SUCCESS 😀 The good news? Tomorrow is another day. We are not made perfect. I have yet to meet a person in this world that does not have depression. It’s still taboo to talk about it. So please don’t beat yourself up about that. I also have yet to meet ANYONE that does not have a self image problem. We all do. It makes us human. What I want you to know? Is that you are not alone. You are with a community who understands.
You will have good days and bad days. Once the sun is out more? You’ll start to feel better. You have a lot to look forward too.