It’s been so long since I have been alone. My mom is out of town, and the house feels so quiet. I don’t feel like I can turn to anybody anymore.
Just a few months ago, my boyfriend and I broke up. We began dating right after I first starting any SI. He helped me to heal and grow past those feelings. Now that we are not together, I want to go back to that familiarity. In a few days it would be our four year anniversary. I’ve been trying to hard to remain free. But getting closer to the date I just feel so lost. I want to grasp any sense of control however I can. I know I can’t but I just don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like I can breathe.
Help.
Feeling like a caterpillar…
Hi butterfly,
Like the old song. Breaking up is hard to do. I’m going through the same thing. All my friends are married with children…I’m the only one left. They can’t hang out. But, I sit and think of single people who are in their mid 3- and? Well? They have to figure out something??? Right???
One HUGE way to gain control is joining a gym. If you have, and don’t go. You need a trainer. They FORCE YOU. They also give you control back. If training is too expensive? Crossfit it’s a family.
Another way? They have all those run/walks. Volunteer. Or find your local museum? Take a photography class? Why the heck not? Find a cooking class. Or join a wine club.
It’s hard to go alone. But, it’s just the first day that’s hard. Show him? You’re stronger. Because in the end? You actually are.