It’s been so long since I have been alone. My mom is out of town, and the house feels so quiet. I don’t feel like I can turn to anybody anymore.

Just a few months ago, my boyfriend and I broke up. We began dating right after I first starting any SI. He helped me to heal and grow past those feelings. Now that we are not together, I want to go back to that familiarity. In a few days it would be our four year anniversary. I’ve been trying to hard to remain free. But getting closer to the date I just feel so lost. I want to grasp any sense of control however I can. I know I can’t but I just don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like I can breathe.

Help.

Feeling like a caterpillar…