Well first I would like to say that I am new to blogging and any kind of therapy; but I want to change. I’ve known for awhile that I need help!!! Let me start by telling a little bit about myself. I am 22 years old, I began injuring when I was 11 years old two years after the event. It was easy to hide in a family of 7 there was really no one on one time with anyone. So I went three years without telling anyone and just slowly wasting away. Playing sports, making sure my grades were up to par, keeping my parents happy, and harboring the event became more and more stressful. It all became to much and I took what was left of  my bottle of medicine. It wasn’t enough it I didn’t even pass out, I got sick for like two days got very sick nd sweating out of control.  I haven’t injured in 5 years but now I’ve moved on to another type of S.I. This method is more discrete and doesn’t allow anyone to have any sort of suspicion. IDK! For some reason it makes me feel better. Almost like forcing all the crazy thoughts of my mind. My boyfriend of 5 years has been my rock in this changing process but I know that I cant allow my change to be surrounded around him because GOD forbid we break up I will spiral out of control and it isn’t healthy for our relationship either so that leads me to this. How do I STOP the thoughts and STOP the S.I????? Any advice will help.