My name is Denise it’s been a really long time since I’ve written anything, but today I found myself wanting to give it all up.  My road to becoming was paved with the thorns without the roses, the downs without any ups and being stuck and deciding 100% of the time not wanting anymore because it seemed as time went on I needed to do things my way so no one would say I’m a failure by having a Therapist or Psychiatrist.  About 2-3 years ago I decided it’s time to do a psychological change of where I used to live so I start, but I was still self-injuring while doing things like throwing out all my triggers, etc.   About 4-5 years ago I had a chance to move out of my old place and make a fresh start, but felt it wasn’t worth it at any cost.  Since that time I have move into an apartment that I’m actually happy to call HOME it’s still hard, but now I have a lot more support around me and next month on the 5th will be 2yrs since I’ve hurt myself and I know it’s a huge step because I’ve never been able to go 1 day or 1 week without doing something.  Life is still hard because even as a recovering self injurer you always wonder what will tomorrow bring.  I also want to let you know I went through the program and graduated August 2008) and I want to say to all the staff members who were there “THANKS FOR BEING THERE.”

I just want to say to all with the right environment, support like friends, therapist and psychiatrist it is possible and just getting rid of all triggers slowly, but surely I’m not saying it’s a quick fix it took time for me, but it was a start.  I want to wish all of the staff and anyone who may know me from the program “A HAPPY BELATED NEW YEARS.”