My father died on Halloween, and it hurts unbelievably. It doesn’t help that I’ve been trying to stop hurting myself, yet that’s all I want to do. I have a goal not to hurt myself until at least February, but I don’t know if I can meet it all the way. I can’t stop thinking about my dad and that’s not helping because when I think of him, I want to cry, and when I cry I hurt myself so I don’t break,. It’s all not going well at all. The one plus side in my life is that my little sister just got out of impatient therapy, so she’s home.