I grew up unaware that other kids ate as much as they wanted, got the attention they needed, and were not yelled at for asking questions. I realized just a few years ago that the childhood I experienced would of been considered neglect. My parents have since then apologized about the lack of care I experienced and have tried to make it up to me and although I don’t blame them anymore I am still uneasy about the whole thing. I find myself struggling to death with the after effects of neglect and it makes me want to relapse and si again. Has anyone had a similar childhood experience? How do I deal with it?
I am sorry you had to deal with what you did. It’s awful how those who are supposed to take care, love and support children, don’t. Although not neglected I was abused in other ways as a child. It is a struggle deal with that. It is one thing to survive through it all, but just because it is over, does not mean that it is not constant struggle. Have you gone to counseling or gotten similar support? If not I urge you to consider getting professional help. It can make a huge difference (if you have a counselor you like and trust). As for SI, what are the reasons you find yourself SIing…sometimes knowing that can help you find the right tools/alternatives instead of SIing. – Again, things a counselor can help with.
I hope you find the support you need. You are not alone.
I delt with neglect and now suffer PTSD as well as anxiety, dependency disorder and a list of other things.