So summer isn’t even here yet and my friends are already talking about going to pools and stuff. I’m so against swimming because of my scars I don’t even own a bathing suit anymore, I got rid of that and all of my shorts earlier this winter. And I know that question is going to come up too. “Why aren’t you wearing shorts?” I hate it every single time I get it. It’s hard to know how to answer that question, and one would think that a third summer without wearing shorts I would know how to answer, but I don’t. I love summer but at the same time I hate it because of things like this. Things I can’t do because of the damage I have inflicted on myself. I don’t even want to think about the horrified reactions I would get if my friends saw what I have been doing to myself. No, I will just have to do what I did last summer and just make up some excuse as to why I can’t go.