Today my therapist was talking to me and mentioned something about how I  struggle with feeling like I’m invisible. At the time I agreed with him, but now my perspective has totally turned around. The problem isn’t that I feel like I’m invisible, the problem is that I’m trying to be invisible. I just want to erase myself out of the picture. I feel as if all I do is hinder everyone. I just want to disappear and be gone out of everyone’s lives. Tonight I’ve fallen, and I can’t get up. I haven’t wanted to injure in a long time and now I’m really struggling with it. I want to injure so badly, I just want relief from feeling like this even if it’s fleeting. I just need out, I need a way to escape everything that I’m feeling right now.