In recovery, I’ve been asked, “How far are you willing to go to get better?” Some days I’m willing to go the extra mile. Other days rolling out of bed and putting my feet on the floor is a small miracle.
This morning the depression and SI urges were winning the battle. I gave all my worries to God. Then I distracted myself by surfing the Internet, writing, listening to music and BAM! Suddenly I felt my mood get lighter and dare I say, a bit happier?
I’m committed to letting God make me into a new person who can:
- Manage the impulses
- Dissuade irrational thoughts
- Ask for help
- Not let emotions take over
- Do something from my coping skills
Whew! I’m proud of myself. Recovery isn’t easy. With four years of sobriety and almost two months of resisting SI urges, I can proclaim it’s well worth the fight.