In recovery, I’ve been asked, “How far are you willing to go to get better?” Some days I’m willing to go the extra mile. Other days rolling out of bed and putting my feet on the floor is a small miracle.
This morning the depression and SI urges were winning the battle. I gave all my worries to God. Then I distracted myself by surfing the Internet, writing, listening to music and BAM! Suddenly I felt my mood get lighter and dare I say, a bit happier?
I’m committed to letting God make me into a new person who can:
- Manage the impulses
- Dissuade irrational thoughts
- Ask for help
- Not let emotions take over
- Do something from my coping skills
Whew! I’m proud of myself. Recovery isn’t easy. With four years of sobriety and almost two months of resisting SI urges, I can proclaim it’s well worth the fight.
I once heard someone say to me that God speaks to us through people. As I have grown in my faith, I believe this to be true more and more. I am going through one of the hardest times in my life, and God has surrounded me with so many caring people. I am so so glad to hear you are relying on Him! When Jesus said that we would follow Him, he most certainly never said it would be easy. I have learned, however, that we can get through those hard times by doing what we can to help ourselves and praying to the Lord and relying on Him to help us with the parts that we cannot do ourselves. We cannot walk through this journey alone, but with God, we have the power to overcome greater things. Loved what you said here!