I’ve been self-harm free for 8 weeks and I’m really proud of myself. I’m kind of afraid though that I’ll relapse. School just started and I’m under a lot of pressure. I’ve been trying really hard to work on my self esteem. I like this guy at my school and whenever I see him I always tell myself ‘you’re not good enough, you’re not pretty enough, you’re too fat for him.’ So I’ve been moving those bad thoughts away and replacing them by telling myself the things I like about myself. It’s working really well and I feel great. One problem I have though is my parents. They really stress me out. They don’t know it, but little by little they pick away at my self esteem. And my brother really hurts me. He makes me feel fat. He’s always saying things like ‘you always eat all the food, you’re so greedy, you’re gonna grow up to be a fatty.’ And that stuff hurts. I’m trying just to ignore him and keep a steady diet but I’m really struggling. Today I almost injured myself. But I wouldn’t let myself. Just because I’m not injuring one way, doesn’t mean it’s okay for hurt myself in another. It’s still self harm. Instead of harming myself I’ve started writing poetry. I’m starting a really nice collection with a few of my own pieces in it.