So I just got done reading the Bodily Harm book again. I have Pict a statement out of the book that basicly describes why I SH. “self-injury is a behavior people rely on to relieve or distract themselves from difficult feelings, or to communicate emotions that they seem unable to speak.” This is so me I am not in touch of my feelings nor how to express them. I have has 8 yes of therapy and I still feel that way. I want to change but I don’t know how.
In ways, I know how you feel at times.
When I do actually express how I feel, I end up getting hurt in one way or another. When I try to reach out to people I know, they either don’t talk back or they can me things.
All I know is that it’s best to talk to someone or do something that allows you to get things out. Writing has worked some for me.
I too use self-injury to cope with overwhelming feelings. Anger, anxiety, and self-hatred mostly, though others do come up every once in a while that trigger SI as well. It most certainly does relieve or distract me from those feelings. Speaking them is very very hard for me, so I know where you are coming from there as well.