I wonder if I could talk to my friends about my problems. I’m just really scared that they may judge me. I’ve tried talking to them before, like when i first started seeing a professional, but I got called and attention seeker and worthless and alot of other not kind names. I always do my best to go above and beyond for my friends so I was shocked when I heard they had said such things. I know they don’t truely understand the gravity of what they said, but it hurt ALOT. I honestly wouldn’t care if it was any other group of people, but I have known almost all of them since the 2nd grade. I’ve basically grown up with these people so I’m wondering what I did to make them think of me in this way. Should I talk to them at all? I have no clue, I know young minds are fickle and can be changed eaisly, but even if they change their minds, which knowing my friends won’t happen, I’m terrified of confrontation and of loosing such long time friends. I am at a total loss.
Personally, if I had an experience like what you are describing here, I would not go back and try and talk to those same individuals. I would look for someone who is more understanding to talk to about such personal matters. Someone once told me that we have different friends for different reasons, and I can’t help but wonder if she wasn’t on to something. For example, I have some friends that I hang out with and talk with about non-personal stuff, and that is all there is to our friendship. They are still friends, just a different type. Then I have those friends who are much closer to me, who I share those personal struggles and joys with, and it’s those friendships that personally mean more to me. Those friends you were referring to might be good friends to spend time with and hang out with, but they might not be such good friends to have such personal conversations with. So, maybe seeking out another person to have personal conversations with is a good idea, and something like that develops in to a friendship of another kind, where you can share each other’s lives, both the good and the bad.