I have spent the past three days in a state of absolute anxiety. Things just keep popping up that are out of my control and I hate that. I hate it when I can feel the panic attacks coming on or the racing thoughts that run through my mind. So last night I was just done with feeling anxious so I injured. I just wish that I wasn’t so good at hiding what was really going on. I’m not wanting to walk around with my heart on my sleeve, but I just wish I was better at communicating my true feelings so that I didn’t have to resort to hurting myself to cope. I just wish that this fear of bothering people with my problems would just go away. I think that is what is really causing me to not open up to those who really do care about me.