I was talking to one of my friends a couple of weeks ago, and telling him about my struggles with self-harm. I just thank God that he has been so understanding of my struggles with this, because I don’t know what I would do if he wasn’t. I told him of my plans to get rid of all of my shorts, because what’s the point of keeping something I’m not going to wear anyway? I am really grateful to him for being so totally understanding of that as well. So, I went through my clothes this morning and packed up all of my shorts and my swimsuit as well, since I won’t be doing that anymore. I can’t drive due to terrible health problems, so I am trying to figure out how in the world I am going to get these out of here. I could easily have someone do it, of course, but I’m going to have to be careful about who I ask. I know how some people like to go through clothes before they just drop them off at some store somewhere, so I can’t pick someone like that because the excuse of the clothes no longer fitting me will not work and they will start asking questions. I just need to find somebody who will just take what I give them and drop it off, without going through it. I feel so silly for making such a big deal out of this.
You should keep the stuff, I don’t see any reason for you to throw them away. You may be trying to hide scars and all that, but they will always be there, you have to love your life and not be afraid of the judgement of others. Read my “Unashamed” post I explain my view on that there 🙂
Well, not throwing them away. Someone else will get to have them. I know I should keep them, but I’m just too afraid to. I’m so tired of hearing harsh comments from others (not about si of course, since I’ve been very careful who I have trusted, but just about other stuff), and I’m just so so tired of being criticized. I guess that’s why I am doing what I can to avoid something like that happening now, even if it does require such a sacrifice on my part.