I try to contain my jealous feelings, count my blessing and consider myself lucky for all that wonderful things that I have. But sometimes…well, I just can’t help it. I am not sure where the jealousy comes from. I guess I know why. Its the usual – I want want others have. I want to feel special and accomplished. I want someone to recognize me. I want to have the things that I dream of having (nothing to grand – just the basics that seem to come with adulthood, like a house).
I really am so thankful for what I do have. I know sometimes I lose sight of that. But sometimes it still hurts to long for something that I can’t have right now. Then I feel bad for having such negative thoughts and not being genuinely happy for others – which leads to the SI. I am happy others are doing well, but… sometimes it is hard. I am striving for things, and when others get it first I feel that little ping of jealousy and a little bit like a failure.
How do you deal with jealousy?