I’m not okay, I’ve accepted that, but at least I’m trying. I really WANT everything to work itself out and be okay. I even told someone else about everything else and she gave me some advice and I’m trying to follow it. Whenever I start therapy maybe they can get me help. All I can do now is get the help I am offered. It took everything I had on Friday not to have a panic attack in school, so I sat there depressed and wouldn’t talk to anyone. That’s probably when I realized I HAD to DO something about this, I can’t just get better. So even though I didn’t put it on my Summer bucket list… it’s probably the most important thing. I can’t keep harming myself, and I can’t keep taking in everything anyone says and letting it hurt me. I WILL BE OKAY!