So it’s me Buffy, but I changed my screen name. I realized if anyone ever went looking it would be pretty obvious who I am. Can’t have that.
Anyway, I totally messed up…………AGAIN!!! I just don’t think when I get like that. It’s like it’s another person. I look back and think what a complete basket case I am! I can be so normal, so level headed. People actually look to me for advice. If they only knew.
I am at a total loss right now as to what to do with myself. Go back to counseling? I don’t have time for that in my life and it makes me feel like an utter failure and so weak!!!! I HATE being weak. Why can’t I just stop this???