So it’s me Buffy, but I changed my screen name.  I realized if anyone ever went looking it would be pretty obvious who I am.  Can’t have that.

Anyway, I totally messed up…………AGAIN!!!   I just don’t think when I get like that.  It’s like it’s another person.  I look back and think what a complete basket case I am!  I can be so normal, so level headed.  People actually look to me for advice.  If they only knew.

I am at a total loss right now as to what to do with myself.  Go back to counseling?  I don’t have time for that in my life and it makes me feel like an utter failure and so weak!!!!  I HATE being weak.  Why can’t I just stop this???