It’s been a couple months or so since I have gotten out of S.A.F.E. So far, everything has been going well. Haven’t injured, willing to help others, and I slowly learning to know how to take care of myself without using medication. I’m getting there though. I still have my days when I wake up in the morning wishing I was still in S.A.F.E but then as the days go on, I then realize how proud they would be knowing I’m doing better on my own, I’m slowly becoming the person I’ve been wanting to be ever since I got out. I do still miss everyone back at S.A.F.E., still miss Ms.Jay and just talking to her and how she was always there for me. How I could tell everyone of my peers and staff anything and everything, and I wouldn’t get judged. How I could wake up in the morning looking forward to talk to everyone, because even when I felt homesick there, I feel homesick at my own home. Because S.A.F.E was my home. Me and my counselor were talking about that, bout how going to a place full of strangers I don’t even know, and how that felt like home to me. I come home listening to music I listened to a song that was from S.A.F.E. and it just hit me. I MISS IT THERE! that was my home. But like I said, I’ll make it through it and they’ll be proud!:)
I am in the Same boat. I have been out of SAFE for a few months as well. Boy do I miss SAFE and everyone there even my peers. it became a tight knit family, that you learned quickly that you could rely and depend on. The outside world is so much different, not everyone is so caring with your feelings and are quick to judge. I still keep in contact with SAFE and my peers that were in SAFE with me. I just wrote a letter to SAFE about all the positives that I have made and continually make in my life. I was also just telling a SAFE peer that I wish that I lived in MO so I could attend the out pt SAFE groups, as some days/weeks all I want to do is self-injure because of what is going on with my marriage.
Yea the first day is the hardest but the next days is like…THIS IS MY FAMILY! I grew up with a family that argued all the time and I was always the one pushed around and abused emotionally by everyone in my family especially my sisters. So I’ve always been the person to push away easily and be quiet all the time and never talk bout my feelings because I didn’t want to feel like a burden but when I went to SAFE, it felt like a comfortable feeling in a good way that I never ever felt in my life and I’m 12. That felt more like a safe home than my own home. I still have my days where I wish I just could go back to the SAFE days and never go back home. But then I realize, I cant hide forever, and if I fight through all that’s going on right now, I’ll be strong and they’ll be proud, and, what’s wrong w/ your marriage if you don’t mind me asking?