I have been searching for somewhere, anywhere to turn. There are no SI parent meetings in my area, if they even exist. I have talked with my daughters therapist about starting a group, to no avail. In a nut shell I am the mother of a nearly 15 year old daughter. She is 5 foot 7″ tall, 120 pounds, long brown hair, honor roll student and is a cheerleader for her high school and she has scars from SI. In November she came to me and said “mom get me help or lock me up”. I have done everything I can possibly do. Countless doctors (we do not have insurance), different meds, a 5 night hospital stay at the local mental health hospital….etc. etc. We have an amazing relationship, sometimes I think too good, because I have always been very easy on her. Her friends are always over and I have mini counseling sessions with them. They come to me for advice. I don’t know what to do now. I am getting angry. I am yelling. I am scared. I do not understand. One of the hardest things for me to grasp is the fact that she takes pictures of her injuries. She takes these photos and puts them on the internet. Her Tumblr with her face hidden. WHY??? I have had countless parents message and call me asking if she is okay. Remember….she is a cheerleader and known very well in our small town. The worst picture was from about 3 weeks ago. Last night we got into a little argument because her grades are slipping. She has about 2 weeks left of school. She told me to “shut my mouth”….which totally made me angry. We yelled back and forth about school, she got up to go to her room. Then a few minutes later the bathroom. Then 10 minutes later I receive a text from her BFF telling me she JUST injured. Her BFF sent me a photo of what she just DID because I was yelling at her about her grades???? REALLY. No. She will NOT do that to me. Injure herself because I got mad at her? I am so frustrated and I honestly just want to shake her and tell her to knock it off. I have been kind and gentle for months. I want our lives back. I do not want to worry if I get mad at her that she will harm herself. That is NOT okay! I am searching for moms to connect with. That I can just talk too and vent too. My husband doesn’t understand, my family doesn’t understand. If anyone knows of any support groups please let me know….also how do I stay calm? She’s so beautiful….she’s destroying herself and her reputation. So many of her friends SI….its like my daughter needs to be the worse out of all of them. She’s on meds, therapy, has been hospitalized, I have hidden anything she can SI with (that I can see), we spend time together, we talk, we laugh. When she closes the door to her room and she is alone, her world crumbles. I haven’t talked to her since last night. I am mad. I will not be made guilty for her SI. Please give me advice………