Hello this is the first time I have ever been to this site and also to a SI support page.  I began injuring when I was 13 and was eventually hospitalized for it when I was 14.  The only solution or problem solving I did was switched from SI to drug abuse.  Been clean and sober for 15 years.  Now 20+ years later I have found myself injuring again and having a very difficult time stopping.  I have been working with a therapist but hard for me to talk about it because I don’t feel like people understand.  I am not trying to kill myself, I am only trying to take this intense emotional pain away.  It allows me to feel alive for even just a short few seconds.  People don’t understand.

My partner of 14 years has recently requested a separation and I find myself feeling like SI is the only option for me to “keep going” and release the sadness and frustration built up inside.  I just don’t have anyone I can talk to about this.  I feel like anyone I may reach out to is only going to judge me for the injuring and not listen to how I feel.

I wish they would have had these types of support groups when I was a teenager.  Going through this as an adult is such a frustrating feeling of aloneness and shame.  I just don’t know where to go from here.