Im never important in anyones lives. I dont understand how this happens. No one cares if I have plans. No one cares if I have something to do. My whole family walks all over me like I dont matter at all. Im tired of it. I seriously am tired of it. All I want to do right now is cry. Well I cant. I have to be the strong one. I have to mess up my day so other people can be happy. I dont understand how I get to this point so quickly. I was so ok with everything last night. My sister in law said shed stay home so I was excited I got a day to myself. NOPE. Shes just sitting here while I take care of her children. What kind person are you? You cant take both of your kids to school its too hard? Really?? So I do it twice a week every week since school started and I cant complain?? The one day I tell her I need to nap sometimes because the days are just too long working from 6 to 10 after watching her children she tells me I shouldnt be napping? That taking care of two children for 10 hours a day isnt hard?? Excuse me? Who are you to tell me that? I just had your kids all weekend so you could go out to party. And the one day youre home from work you cant even take both your kids?? I dont get it. I can never have a say in anything. If I do I have “fits.” Really lady?? Im tired. I work three jobs. Im in grad school. When I find a time in the day, when I find that little loophole, I try to grasp it and take the time I need for myself. And now that I try to do that Im “throwing fits.” Im 24 years old. I shouldnt be so stressed out by stupid stuff like this. I shouldnt have to worry so much about other people. I need to be able to take care of myself. Not go si the minute I feel like this. Granted I havnted si-ed yet. But I want to. OMG I want to.