It just never stops. The urges, the triggers…they don’t stop. I’ve gone a year without my main form of SI, yet I see one trigger and it’s all I can do not to go there.
I have something called a skin issue, which is not self injury but it’s a way to relief stress. It’s a huge issue for me right now and I don’t know how to stop it. It’s so frustrating.
Some of my friends have mental health issues like I do and it’s interesting to talk to them about it and be able to completely relate to it. None of them self harm but they at least get the mindset. I used to be suicidal and they get that too.
I’m really down in the dumps right now…and triggers are everywhere. And my depression has started to creep its way back in. I’m scared. I don’t want it here. I want it gone.
But it never goes away.
:'(
Ps. It’s not called a “skin issue” for reals…the real name of the issue was just changed after I submitted it. I understand why, but it makes me sound stupid without an explanation lol so there ya go
I think it’s great that you have people in your life that you can relate to and talk to! I think that it’s very helpful to talk about things rather than bottle them up, so I applaud you for that.
I’m new to this site, and although I have people in my life that can relate, this seems like a great place too!
I’m not sure what type of coping skills you have tried, but a few things that help me are intense exercise, just taking a walk in the woods or getting some outdoor time, getting enough sleep(sometimes depression makes me need extra sleep), and eating something healthy. I also like to email, text, or make a card for other people just to see how they are doing and get out of my own head.
Hope this helps. Take care.