It just never stops. The urges, the triggers…they don’t stop. I’ve gone a year without my main form of SI, yet I see one trigger and it’s all I can do not to go there.

I have something called a skin issue, which is not self injury but it’s a way to relief stress. It’s a huge issue for me right now and I don’t know how to stop it. It’s so frustrating.

Some of my friends have mental health issues like I do and it’s interesting to talk to them about it and be able to completely relate to it. None of them self harm but they at least get the mindset. I used to be suicidal and they get that too.

I’m really down in the dumps right now…and triggers are everywhere. And my depression has started to creep its way back in. I’m scared. I don’t want it here. I want it gone.

But it never goes away.