I have not been here in 13 months and I am about to turn 19. Although, it still feels like just yesterday when I SI’ed and would come on this site. Its been a long time coming, and I have come so far and changed in so many different ways. I haven’t SI’ed since October 2012 and I am so proud of myself. I remember sometimes I used to stay up at night, thinking about how I made the wrongs choices and how I let it depress me. I would have crying spells in the shower or in my bed right before I went to sleep. I don’t feel lonely anymore and I have a girlfriend who cares for me deeply. She is the cherry top to my ice cream sundae life. I never would have imagined this current life right now while I was at the peak of my problems at age 17. I did so many things to myself and felt horrible about how I lived my life, and to see that its all in the past is a great relief. My parents trust me now to be alone in the house by myself without worrying that I will SI. I remember the last day I SI’ed. Here’s some advice, don’t tell yourself it will be your last time, you just have to think “I don’t need this”, “its not the events that shape how we feel, its how we think about them or how we respond to them”, that mentality really helped me. You just have to be like, “I’m not going to let this situation get to me, I am stronger than this”. Its not going to fix you in one night, but it is a start, I know it took me a couple months. I honestly can say that I love my life right now. I’m social again, I’m dating and I am living life the way I want to live it. I would like to thank the people on this site who gave me advice, similar to how I am now giving you guys advice. Its a constant effort to get over depression and SI’ing but once you break through that barrier of sadness/hurt/pain, it will be much easier to live life, trust me. Once again, I am saying thank you, and remember to never give up the fight against depression and Si’ing. Its a battle that is difficult, but it is winnable.