I just don’t see what the point is anymore. I try and try not to SI, but the urge is so strong. Although I havent SI’ed in over 2 months, the urge is getting worse and worse. I think about it so much now, I just need to do it. So what if I do it? Who cares? No one. There isn’t anyone that cares, even if they knew. I just can’t handle this anyone.  In tired of just continuously failing. I just want to SI